Thoughts

Every person has a train of thoughts on which s/he rides wen s/he is alone. NOTHING other bothers but thoughts flowing through minds, feelings runnin' all over d body even from tip of hair to nails of fingers.

Em afraid, Is it happenin' same like which happened a long yrs back. No, it ought not be. But fears inside, still alive within me. It's complicated to control over mah fear that leads to sub-concious stage. Today as I lay in my bed, as many as thoughts rush through my head. I think about every steps on which I step on. Ma mistakes, my choice, my fear, challenges, my weak areas n my strong, all these thoughts I am thinkin' out loud and questionin' all wrongs n rights. From right to wrong n wrongs to rights, as if I'm?doin' serious research. Once again I wonder who I am? And whats wrong with me? Everytime I questions, I got no answers of it at all . I got no identity of me still. I think I do have left lots more Tasks to perform. Am I depressed? Might be but I wont let it to happen again. I'd try everything to swipe away n ride out of it. Nobody knows n understand us better than our parents. They know me what em goin' through, that's y askin' me lots of questions. They need no reason for asking, they have complete rights. I lied them so many times as if nothing happens. They caught my lies thats why they are guiding me to right tracks. How many lies?….. I could no more lie to them. Finally no other ways left, than to say the truth. I think I'm feeling much more better rather than to live with lies. What I must do is all that concerns me and my parents, not what other people think. I do agree now, em hangin' out with wrong crowd. I am totally diff. from what I want to be. Life goes which way who knows it but we have to track right one. Sometimes life goes so fast we forget to appreciate. special moments wen we r with closest and dearest to us. I realised I'd never gonna to have this moments again and those are beautiful memory which became part of my life, I do appreciate it. We often hold back our true thoughts and feelings in fear of being judged or rejected or embarressed but wen we became truely honest " thats when we feel most free" . free to live, free to be n say whats really on our heart and do whats right. Neva let self get caught up n sub-merged in the middle of things, it possibly may be d wrong outcome and that situation we forget to see the moments that truely matters. Openin heart, sharin' secrets, care eachother, trustin' n believe another is one of the moat beautiful? Experience I do have. Parents, family members n loved ones are the most important people in my life. I only have one life and I think regrets are not meant to be part of my life. I want to live free of it n seize opportunities to fullfill mine and others with love. "Nourish your heart n soul. For this there shall be a time that person is gone but this way u are prepared n part of love we have understand it" Wake each day n live them as if they r first and last. If I dont hav god, I don't have anythin' in me n in my life. My parents are my God, I thanked to them whole heartedly for what they gave me n what I have in life. And guide me to think in diffrent manner "HOW TO make life beautiful? "

Dont go after perfect, nothing is perfect in this world. Appreciate what you hav, feel the feeling called love in hateness also, if u hate, u will surely gona regret it one day. Believe in self.