Thursday, June 30, 2016

Never Cry For the One who Left You



Relationship 

Sometimes it's one the best part of  Life,
Sometimes it becomes shit..
Some are there who are happy though they are far from each other
Some are there who cannot maintain relation being together also
You know the hardest part is to be apart from the one whom we love.
Some relation broke by mistake 
Some just because you dont care.
Some are there for a reason we cannot change.
Some we just have to let it go though we don't want to. 
Never cry for the one who left you, because if there's happiness 
for him/her by leaving you then let it go 
"Love is not only on what you want to achieve but its also in what you sacrifice to let her happy; however you want to see him/her happy na.."
Move on to find the one who Deserves you and Em sure you will find someday
80% of the People Find it Hard to move on After Breakup, I think i am also one Among them,
But Slowly am also moving ahead and i hope i will also someday Find the One who deserve me.
Most people end their Life due to heart Break rather than other various Reason.
There are Far better things Ahead than Any we leave Behind
Always Love and Trust yourself more than Others
Move On to Find The Best in Life.../

There's Always Place For You In My Heart


Choosing the person you want to share your Life with is One of the most Important Decisions any of us makes ever Because when its wrong it turns your life to grey And some times you don't even notice until you wake up one morning and realize years have gone by.We both know about that. Your friendship has brought glorious technicolor to my life. It's been there even in the darkest of times And i am the luckiest person alive for that gift I hope i didn't take it for granted. I think may be i did. Because sometimes you don't see that the best thing that's ever happened to you is there, right under your nose. But that's fine too. It really is. Because i have realized that..no matter where you are or what you are doing or who you are with, i will always, honestly, truly completely love you. Like a sister loves a brother And a friend loves a friend. I will always stand guard your dreams, baby. No matter how weird or twisted they get. 

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

I Need No Reason To Smile

I need no reason to smile.
Memories of the past we
spent together is enoughto develop a smile on mah face...Your one talk can get me
relief from all the..problems..you are the one who show meh
the way to be happy with the situations..I just miss every minutes I spent with u.
Just want to be wid u forever..
you gave a hope that I would live longer than actually I will... :* l♡p u sweet heart.

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Thoughts

Every person has a train of thoughts on which s/he rides wen s/he is alone. NOTHING other bothers but thoughts flowing through minds, feelings runnin' all over d body even from tip of hair to nails of fingers.

Em afraid, Is it happenin' same like which happened a long yrs back. No, it ought not be. But fears inside, still alive within me. It's complicated to control over mah fear that leads to sub-concious stage. Today as I lay in my bed, as many as thoughts rush through my head. I think about every steps on which I step on. Ma mistakes, my choice, my fear, challenges, my weak areas n my strong, all these thoughts I am thinkin' out loud and questionin' all wrongs n rights. From right to wrong n wrongs to rights, as if I'm?doin' serious research. Once again I wonder who I am? And whats wrong with me? Everytime I questions, I got no answers of it at all . I got no identity of me still. I think I do have left lots more Tasks to perform. Am I depressed? Might be but I wont let it to happen again. I'd try everything to swipe away n ride out of it. Nobody knows n understand us better than our parents. They know me what em goin' through, that's y askin' me lots of questions. They need no reason for asking, they have complete rights. I lied them so many times as if nothing happens. They caught my lies thats why they are guiding me to right tracks. How many lies?….. I could no more lie to them. Finally no other ways left, than to say the truth. I think I'm feeling much more better rather than to live with lies. What I must do is all that concerns me and my parents, not what other people think. I do agree now, em hangin' out with wrong crowd. I am totally diff. from what I want to be. Life goes which way who knows it but we have to track right one. Sometimes life goes so fast we forget to appreciate. special moments wen we r with closest and dearest to us. I realised I'd never gonna to have this moments again and those are beautiful memory which became part of my life, I do appreciate it. We often hold back our true thoughts and feelings in fear of being judged or rejected or embarressed but wen we became truely honest " thats when we feel most free" . free to live, free to be n say whats really on our heart and do whats right. Neva let self get caught up n sub-merged in the middle of things, it possibly may be d wrong outcome and that situation we forget to see the moments that truely matters. Openin heart, sharin' secrets, care eachother, trustin' n believe another is one of the moat beautiful? Experience I do have. Parents, family members n loved ones are the most important people in my life. I only have one life and I think regrets are not meant to be part of my life. I want to live free of it n seize opportunities to fullfill mine and others with love. "Nourish your heart n soul. For this there shall be a time that person is gone but this way u are prepared n part of love we have understand it" Wake each day n live them as if they r first and last. If I dont hav god, I don't have anythin' in me n in my life. My parents are my God, I thanked to them whole heartedly for what they gave me n what I have in life. And guide me to think in diffrent manner "HOW TO make life beautiful? "
Dont go after perfect, nothing is perfect in this world. Appreciate what you hav, feel the feeling called love in hateness also, if u hate, u will surely gona regret it one day. Believe in self.

Note page217 vs page398 "LIFE CANNOT BE THE SAME AS WE WANTED TO BE"

217 Sept
……… 
...,
trust meh I have tried countless way to know her, better to understand in every way but still I couldnot. I wont give up and still continues to my best every way and will make her happy. 

Oh God I thanked you that we are fated to meet each other but plz dnt destined us to be apart from each other, I don’t want and I cant stand moving apart from her. I love her so much. If em belong to her, I am lost in the different world, I cant even imagine, it feels like a dream, so much happiness. If I don’t em still lost, don’t know which world that is, might feels like in hell. 
When she is happy . I am thinking of thousand people’s smiles in the world but between those smile, her smile is my favourite one which makes me smile without any reason. I still believe I am a kind of different guy, everything just strange about me. I was at total peace until I met her. But these things changed when she stepped in my life at that stage where I felt the arrival of love was not possible. Who knew, I even did not know someone, somewhere somehow I would meet someone special like her in mah life who will change me lots/ I want to change, I want to be like her, happy, helpful, always smile on face, together forever.And I can do that for her and I will. When she leaves me, I feel sad, when she gets upset, my mood turns really bad, when shes angry , nothing goes right wid meh/ when she’s with other, I feel jealous too sometimes. Whats wrong wid me?, I trust her and I have to… Do em in love, is it true love?/ Is these are the feelings people called True love. umm.. I think em in love. Ops.. why em thinking so much now?/ I still don’t know what she thinks about me/ What if she leaves me? No it can’t be. Till today I checked her in every way, she’s not like that, she cant do this to meh/

“KEEP calm she will surely love u like u do! “ 
I welcomed this beautiful moment or she presented it to me, I don’t know. Whatever my life is beautiful being with her.

“Hello..lo..lo God, just listen ok; don’t let anybody’s eyes on our relationship ok”

I wish we could read eachothers mind. Then I’d not have to be scared of losing her, scared to tell how I planned about us, scared of what other thinks, scared of loving her.

“Common mann!, you sudn’t be scared, you know what? , you must be strong enough”

oh! Really, I get it.
It’s been so much time nah, we are being part of each other.
 I just feel lucky to have her. I miss her so much now, I wish she’s with me and give me hug and give me goodnight kiss. She don’t know I fall more for her, running all over my mind/,
Look my heart beats faster, can you hear, she’s telling meh, “ I m over here, I miss you too”

“Hey you! Are you gonna sleep or I’ll leave you now, clock gonna strike 2. Without me you wont be able to think, I am tired today. So close your note, keep ur feelings foh tomorrow,”
Achha fine! Sure, goodnight.
I miss you Baby. I love you, good night u too. Tomorrow we…

398 Feb 
I am sad … today.
…… What is the only thing that every person wish for?
“it’s to turn back the time” 
I do want the same.
What I believe and what’s happening? I don’t understand .
Every time I listen to her, I am hurt what she says/ Why did she want like that? Everyday I talk with her with hope everything is fine but its end with worst. What shall I do? My real happiness is; being with her but we are appearing as strangers, it’s sad to being like this.
Waking up early, doing my works, meeting friends, came back to home and back to sleep, it seems normal life but something is missing, I missed the moments wid her, I missed those hugs which c gave me as I always needed them. Although I laugh, smile, spend time with other but still I don’t find happiness what I in search of?
With every passing minute, the heart is full of mixed feelings. Even in crowd of people, lonliness finds me.Things changes with changing time, but not the people of the society, selfishness comes across everything, we wish for./ God, why did u let our paths cross when you knew we have to part our ways? Was em really entitled f or this? I know u will fix this, I know u will let our path cross again and let it be forever.
“Life takes U-turn but never tells you when”
But my time being with her was precious, I wont trade it with anything.. I should not force her in any way. I should have to understand her situation she is in, now. I just want her to be happy… Be with me..or../ Leaving everyone believe she’s still the same.
All I was left with silent screams, hears only by meh/ and I know she’s too? Plz god give her power to hold.
Every thing just s…./
I feel sorry for everything else…/
Missed her..
Gd9t./